October 2009
40 posts
Watchthis just in: my friends are hilarious.
haaaa. i need to get back to lynchburg.
well. it could’ve been something.
i wandered around chicago for hours today.
it’s a beautiful city.
there was a man walking down the sidewalk who had the most character filled face i have ever seen. it was long, droopy, with a bulbousy nose and looked quite sad (but i think he was actually pretty happy.) he was wearing a long black coat, gloves, and a bowler hat and carried a cane. i think he might have actually been a...
i am sitting in a quaint little apartment in the middle of chicago. city lights shining through the window, rain falling on the roof. seconds away from a gorgeous and big body of water, and autumn leaves covering the streets. i should feel more content than i do.
we had 4 screenings today. and we have one less person on the team than we usually do. needless to say, i’m exhausted.
...
what happens when you ask for just one door to be opened and multiple fling themselves open?
i guess it’s time i learned how to make decisions.
there are three weeks of tour left. i can’t believe it. typing that sentence didn’t feel real. less than two weeks till i’m in minneapolis, which i’m equal parts excited and nervous about. less and less nervous by the day,...
damn it. i hate when i have a really good thought but i don’t know how to articulate it properly.
my Lord God.
i have no idea where i am going.
i do not see the road ahead of me.
i cannot know for certain where it will end.
nor do i really know myself,
and the fact that i think i am following
your will does not mean
that i am actually doing so.
but i believe that my desire to please you
does in fact please you.
and i hope that have that desire
in all that i am doing.
i hope that i...
part of a piece i have been working on for awhile now…
i haven’t smoked or spoken to you in over a week. both my vices have been ripped out of my hands, not by choice, but by circumstance. ironically, i feel sicker than ever.
go figure.
it’s coming along nicely. most things are these days.
“with severed legs i’d walk with intent to prosper. a body plagued with...”
the best biscuits and gravy you’ll ever eat. and what’s more; they’re vegan! thanks mallory.
biscuits: 2 cups whole wheat pastry flour 5 tsp baking powder 2 tsp dried thyme 2 tsp dried rosemary 1 tsp salt 3 T cold, non-hydrogenated veg shortening 2 T cold non-hydrogenated margarine 1 cup almond milk (or any nondairy milk) preheat oven to 450 in large bowl, mix together...
“Ralph Waldo Emerson once asked what we would do if the stars only came out once...”
“Come my tan-faced children,
Follow well in order, get your weapons ready,
Have...”
– walt whitman
good things are on the horizon. i don’t know what they are, but i can feel them coming. and the horizon isn’t that far away.
i’m pretty sure i know exactly what i’m doing after tour, but i’m hesitant to say anything just yet. it’s still depending on a couple of different things, which i won’t know about for a couple weeks. we’ll see…but...
“the church is a she.
she’s a mystery, isn’t she? still going after...”
– rob bell
i have lost everything.
yet, have gained so much.
someday i will feel like it was worth it.
that day isn’t today.
“God is in this place, and I wasn’t aware of it.”
this verse is wrecking me.
i feel like i am coming to this realization 20 times a day now.
the holiness of everything is overwhelming.
i am finally being restored.
it’s wretched but you can’t grieve over it or even really be hurt… it just is. so here i am, in feelings purgatory.
bingo.
i’ve decided to not to make plans. not to tell anyone where i’ll be after tour…because i have no idea. anything could happen. God’s taught me enough times now to stop making plans. i rarely get what i want anymore, but i always get what i need. i’m rarely where i want anymore, but i’m always where i need to be. one of my teammate’s was telling me the other...
this is…
something.
there has been a lot on my mind lately.
i had no intention of missing you while i was gone, and was surprised to find that i do. quite a bit, actually. i’m not really sure what to do about it. the uncertainty of everything about my life right now makes it hard to know whether this is a good or a bad thing. i’m not really concerned about it, though. these things always work...
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME.
my belly is full of pad thai and my brain is full of the remnants of a good conversation. tasty.
it’s our last night in texas. thank goodness.
someone challenged me to write a song about every city i visit on this tour, and i said i’d do it. this is gonna be rough.
bedtime. or readtime. or get distracted on the internettime. whatever happens.
i love you!
